hmmm...

wow things have been way weird lately. i dont even know how to begin to describe it. ive really been trying to get a hold of things, but things just dont end up working out. it drives me insane because i feel the need to always have a plan. and right now i have no idea what im doing. this last like month has been way boring. no one ever wants to go do anything anymore. the first few weeks since being here were way fun! meeting people, going to parties, and just plain hanging out. now, its just the hassle of trying to get groups of people together and hanging out. we make plans, but they always fall through for some reason or another. and then we end up just watching a movie (most likely a chick flick) in our apartment, alone (no boys). its quite annoying. i mean, i dont want my college experience to be like this. what we had the first weeks was awesome. there was always something fun going on and someone way fun to go party with. i mean, i know we all have homework and work and such, but that doesnt mean we have to stop playing! the weekends are for PLAY. why should i spend my saturday night watching chick flicks and making an 8 o'clock Walmart run. i mean, really? ugh. im trying, so then whats the problem? do i act too immature? am i rude? do i smell funny? what is it?