hear ye! hear ye!

so i really dont know if i even have anyone reading my blog. so please put a comment on here to let me know if you read my blog.... im really curious to know who my audience is. thank you!

hmmm...

wow things have been way weird lately. i dont even know how to begin to describe it. ive really been trying to get a hold of things, but things just dont end up working out. it drives me insane because i feel the need to always have a plan. and right now i have no idea what im doing. this last like month has been way boring. no one ever wants to go do anything anymore. the first few weeks since being here were way fun! meeting people, going to parties, and just plain hanging out. now, its just the hassle of trying to get groups of people together and hanging out. we make plans, but they always fall through for some reason or another. and then we end up just watching a movie (most likely a chick flick) in our apartment, alone (no boys). its quite annoying. i mean, i dont want my college experience to be like this. what we had the first weeks was awesome. there was always something fun going on and someone way fun to go party with. i mean, i know we all have homework and work and such, but that doesnt mean we have to stop playing! the weekends are for PLAY. why should i spend my saturday night watching chick flicks and making an 8 o'clock Walmart run. i mean, really? ugh. im trying, so then whats the problem? do i act too immature? am i rude? do i smell funny? what is it?

"where words fail, music speaks"

it makes me sad how i dont listen to my music much anymore. i dont even carry my iPod with me to class. i just leave it in my iPod dock at home. when im in my room getting ready for school/bed is now the only time i really turn it on. or if im in my room doing homework and cleaning and such. i used to pop in my headphones while i walked to class. but im weird and dont like to totally tune out the world each time i walk to class. i like to be able to communicate with people as im walking. and plus i just look so emo with my headphones and forgetting that the world exists around me. on my other blog i like to copy down the lyrics to whatever song really sticks out to me each day. but today, as i was about to write a new post on that blog, no song came to mind. no song was i really feeling it for. its sad because i love being able to find songs that i can really relate to at different times in my life. i mean, i got a letter from my best friend yesterday, then i listened to his playlist. even then did i not find a song. i find this very odd.

i am not very good with words so i hold to the saying, "where words fail, music speaks". i originally found that quote on some guys shirt at Warped Tour this summer. for awhile i had been trying to phrase exactly that. and when i saw that i immediatly (i never know how to spell that right...) copied it down into my phone. in my Music and Lyrics notebook, i have it written down on the front page--just to explain what that notebook is really about. this last summer i transferred the purpose of that notebook to my other blog. because, you know, everything should be electronic these days, right? ha...

i dont even know if anyone reads my blog anymore. but just so you know, i have another blog that i had kept secret for awhile, but now i dont care who sees it. i dont really know what the point to this post is. but you know me, i just like to ramble on about random things.