some things are better left unsaid

Is honesty really the best policy? Sometimes I wonder. Like, I know its very important to tell the truth and all, but sometimes I feel like it's better to just keep your mouth shut. I love to be open with my friends and be able to tell them how I feel about things. But sometimes it comes back to bite you in the butt. Though some things are better left unsaid, other things are better to be shared. I had a big talk with a good friend tonight and I was able to really open up and be honest about things. I was really glad that they were able to take it so well and not end up freaking out and thinking I am a nut case or something ;) It was really nice to be able to talk about things so freely and get some things cleared up. I am glad that we can work things out, no matter how hard they are for me. I just hope I didn't say anything wrong tonight.. or taken the wrong way. I don't often open up to people, especially ones I don't know very well, but I have an amazing friend that I feel I can talk to about anything now. We haven't been friends for very long, so this friend should feel privileged that I am able to choose him as the friend I confide in. See, I have my girlfriends that I talk to about juicy and girly things, but it's the guy friends that get to hear from the deep corners of my mind. Recently, those guy friends have left on their missions, or are d-bags, or have just moved on in their lives so then I didn't have anyone close to me that I could talk to. Nobody likes to feel alone. I hadn't felt so alone in such a long time. But now I have a new friend that will have to expect random phone calls at all hours of the day and night and listen to my senseless venting and balling. I hope he's up for it. Maybe that's why I've gone through so many close guy friends... maybe I scare them away. I am no nut case... at least I think so. I don't know... you tell me :)

Ooook... now for some music and lyrics time! This song is Blame it on the Changes by Dashboard Confessional. This is the song that made me love DC :)

i lay down, i cant sleep
my mind drums on repeat
i stare at the ceiling from my side
i reach out you're right there
but you're lost in the details
i wait for the end of a long night

(chorus)
you can blame it on the changes
i can take it any way it is
just got lost but we both found
we need this more than ever can
you take it can we save it
sink your teeth in tear away at it
can we hold out can you hold on
cuz i need you more than you know now

we play like we dont know
we both lie but we dont show
that something is changing between us
we start out in one lane the same road
the same name but something we cant see divides us

(chorus)

cuz i need you more than you know
cuz i need you more than you know

dont run away cuz i need you more than ever now

you can blame it on the changes
i can take it any way it is
we just got lost but we both found
we need this more than ever
can you take it can we save it
sink our teeth in tear away at it
can we hold out can we hold on
cuz i need you more than ever
cuz i need you more than you know now